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Damn it, I'm depressed again. I learned to put up a happy front in front of my flatmate as well. He was the last person I was slipping in front of in real life. So I smile for him and laugh. Not when I'm alone. I distract myself with games and reading and watching and whateve I can find. But otherwise, I just want to stare in front of me and think of nothing. Why? My life is empty. It has no meaning. I'm heading nowhere. At work people don't talk to each other, everyone is just buried in their computers, not taking any notice. When I once brought this up, my colleague said that everyone is working. In other places we could work and chat at the same time, or discuss stuff. Here it's just work. And they're obsessed! Everyone is doing overtime all the time and they don't even get paid for it. They even work during the weekend some times. I don't get it! At belly dance we talk, but it's only there and meaningless chatter. No one is really

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! I'm 71kg. Really! I stepped on the scales twice. Okay, 4 times actually, just to make sure. That's -4kg in about 2 weeks! Finally I'm getting somewhere. All the belly dancing and starving is starting to pay off. I can't believe it. I also lost about 3cm from all over. I did notice that my skirt was riding a little bit lower, but didn't want to get my hopes up. Size 38 shorts, here I come. I'm on a week long vacation from work now. Lots of rest. I have been really sleepy and tired all last week and the first night here at my mom's I slept for 15 hours. I also managed to convince my mom to watch Hana Yori Dango with me. I wanted to watch it again with the Director's Cut version of the final. It does have some great added stuff, but there is a really long scene with Tsukushi crying that I don't remember being that long in the original. My mom is terribly impatient. She was grumbling about the story not moving fast enough th