Still hate online dating. No replies to anything I send out. There were two guys who sent messages to me. One gave me a bad feeling when looking at his picture. I usually have good gut instinct, so I staid away from that one. The second one was in Győr, which is far from Budapest. I would not like to date someone who doesn't live in the area, so I gave that a pass too. Thus, no luck. I'm frustrated now and feel like just not bothering with the whole thing anymore. I read the Sookie Stackhouse novels. All 10 of them. I think/hope that there are going to be more. It was really great. The books are not overly long or drawn out. Action all the way. Really exciting. It has romance and mystery as well. Eric is my favourite. In the TV series the actor who plays him is gorgeous. He was naked from behind in the season premiere and my fantasies stared him ever since. Seriously, everyone should see that. Tall, blond, muscular, ... drool. Anyway, they are really fun, easy-to-read vam...
Originally on DeviantArt: Tomorrow I'm going to a belly dancing event and plan on taking lots of pictures. The only problem is that I forgot the connecting cable to the computer at my mom's, so I won't be able to upload anything until I get it. However, I als have a DVD with my old pictures. I'll go through them to see if I have anything. Today the weather here is really bad. We have some snow, but it's the small ice-like kind and that is not as nice as the fluffy flakes. So when I was going to work, I knew I had to brighten myself up with something. The best solution for that is to listen to some ARASHI. That's a Japanese boy band. So they have this song called "LIFE". Whenever I listen to it, I can see the sun shining through my mental eyes. Maybe I'll make sort of a nature video with lots of sunshine some day for it.
I guess I'm just in one of my moods. Sometimes it happens. Usually around the time when my body becomes fertile, so I'm blaming the hormones. Most women take pills to control their cycles, but I don't, so now I can just feel my body calling out to someone. It does feel strange, this longing. Especially to someone like me, who strives to be in control of her body all the time. I wasn't always like this. Now I feel emotionally shut off from the world most of the time, relying on my mind. I do remember times when I was a much warmer person. I used to have friends back then. I used to want to have friends. I sometimes ask myself, why I changed. When did I break? About 4 years ago I fell in love. I confessed to him and he said the usual, my feelings were unreturned. I felt embarassed. I cried a lot. Maybe I broke then. My heart did feel like breaking at the time, but I just can't be sure. Ever since then love has not touched my heart. I keep wondering if t...
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