Single Again


Well, I'm single again. I should be sad now, but I'm actually relieved. It wasn't working and I think we both knew it for some time, but we still dragged it on. He because he liked me too much and I because I just didn't want to be single again. Or rather, just didn't want to break up again. The last time sucked.

So what happened? Last I wrote about my relationship we went to Vienna. It was quite good, but there were schedule problems, as I've mentioned. We both went to spend the holidays with out families in different cities, so we didn't meet. We later met, but then I caught influenza and I was back with my mom for a few weeks again. Then we met once again and tonight he broke up with me in an email. Which I would mind, if I felt something, but since I apparently don't, I'm rather glad for. He says that it was me who didn't want to spend enough time with him. True that I had belly dancing, but I had been looking forward to relaxing over the Christmas break for months and I couldn't help getting sick. Before going away he said he would visit me over the holidays, but he never brought it up later on, and I didn't want to bother him with it. Another thing was that he went home to his mother every single weekend. When we started out, he came back earlier a couple of times so that we could spend Sunday afternoon together, but he only did that like twice. So, I didn't feel that much enthusiasm on his part either, in spite of him claiming to be in love with me. It's true that I wasn't, but I'm not the love-at-first-sight person and I told him that from the start. He did nothing to make me fall for him. It was all rather boring. We hardly ever did anything together, just went to a couple of movies and had lots of coffees. "That" wasn't very good either.

So now that I'm single again, I think I'm going to throw myself into losing weight again. Not to catch a man or anything, but because I still don't feel comfortable in my skin. I have been rather lax with my diet, with being sick and then I had my period. So tonight, without hesitation, I'm back on the bandwagon. I'm also going to use Calorie Count again, which I haven't for a while. It's going to be easier now, because I'm cooking for myself. Oh, and I'm creating wonderful food! In fact, I think my latest passion is creating recipes and working with new ingredients. I always loved cooking, but I've come to enjoy it more than ever.

Tomorrow I'll go to belly dancing and I'm thinking of trying yoga. I should be around people more. I hardly ever party and I should do that more as well.

Otherwise, my life won't change much.

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