Online Dating - I want a family


Last night I was reminded why I hate online dating. I sent out 3 messages based on 3 profiles. Of course, that was hard to begin with. Everyone wants a girl under 65kg. I happen to be 70kg. I have been trying to lose to at least that weight for forever, but it's just not happening. I eat really little. Salads and vegies most of the time. True, I don't really work out, but it just bores me so much. I have to keep my mind occupied.

So I sent out my 3 messages. Two came back with "You're probably a nice girl, but..." I think they copied those out from some sort of a manual. I resent that, I'm not nice. I just seem nice. They were probably looking for someone prettier and thinner.

The 3rd one sent me back in Japanese, looked up from some silly site "I want to ... into your mouth". I'm just writing it like that so no one gets offended. I won't repeat the Japanese. Why would a guy even look that up, let alone write it to a girl?! I think he wondered onto the wrong site. There is a sexpartner site, he should write that kind of a crap on there. I was reluctant to write to him anyway.

So yeah, a lot of bull. I'm not finding many interesting ones there. I suppose that all the good ones are taken in their 20s. Frustrating. I'm really trying. This is my only method of trying to meet someone, as I don't have any friends, I don't go out. At work everyone is married. Except for the guy I gave it a shot with, but there was no spark. Nothing. Bland.

I feel like I'm going to be alone forever. I want a family.

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