Emotionally hard day


It all started with the Hungarian community portal IWIW sending me some notes about mails I got there. They were just stupid chain mails, but since I had some time, I went to delete them. Then it occured to me to have a look at my old high school classmates, who I have in a group there. This year is the 10th anniversary of my graduation from there, so soon enough someone should start organising a get-together. If no one steps up until April, I'll start sending mails myself.

So as I was looking at them, I noticed that quite a few names changed. We were an almost all girls class, so their names changed, because they got married. About 5 from the ones who I had there and were visibly married. Since there were only 14 in my class, that is quite a high number. And here I am, not even hoping to ever get married, or even be in a relationship.

Coincidentally, two girls here started to talk about marriage and kids, I just had to join them.

Then this guy brings in his two kids, one a little girl about a year old and I just feel my heart constrict.

ARGH!

I often like being single, not having to put up with anyone, but some days I'm just lonely. I feel like I have nothing to look forward to in life.

Second rant in a row. Not a good streak.

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