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Originally on DeviantArt: I'm currently at my mom's. I actually have a lot of old photos here. Some are interesting and have belly dancers on them. This reminds me that I love taking pictures of belly dancers. I should start attending competitions again and take lots of pics. I used to compete myself, but never got a good position, so I just gave up after a while. I do miss the stage, though competitions were never my favourite way of performing. I would rather perform at regular events. So I'm going to put up here the best of my older pictures.    

Originally on DeviantArt: Yeah, I know, I promised pictures from Germany. I did make lots of them. I even got an extra card for my camera. Some of them turned out really well. Some are a bit shaky, as the weather was mostly clouded and I had to use a more sensitive setting. Of course, on the last morning it was all blue skies... I haven't put up any yet as I was really busy with packing up my old place and moving to a new one. The new apartment turned out to be really dirty. Me and my mom cleaned it out. I also got a new bed from IKEA. I can fold it up to a couch, so that's cool. I also have no internet at my new place, only from January. I will go to my mom's for Xmas, where there is internet. I want to put up my pictures then. I also want to tweak a few a bit. Pictures:  http://zeldaofarel.deviantart.com/gallery/23982794

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KwfJe9KsamU I actually made that video in Munich, where I went to the concert. It was the best! I'm so glad that I was there. I just can't describe it, but if you have a change to go to one of their concerts, take it! Pictures!

Originally on DeviantArt: I joined DeviantArt mainly because I love to look at beautiful and/or interesting pictures and loved a lot of stuff here. I also wanted to see when my favourite artists put up something, so I decided to join. I can't draw. I used to try really hard, but I have no sense of proportions whatsoever. I can't even draw manga. What I am good at though is taking pictures of nature, buildings and people. I went to a family wedding and when the couple saw my pictures, they told me that they should not have hired a photographer. My pictures were way better. I'm good at capturing the moment, because I can anticipate it. I often see the patterns in events and actions, thus I'm able to predict them. I also love to take pictures of dancers, primarily belly dancers. I dance as well. I didn't put anything up yet, because most of my pictures are far away, but I will select the best ones and upload them here .

On a happier note, I'm going to see Abingdon Boys School in München! So cool. Can't wait. I'm also going to spend some time in the city and actually see it. I'm planing on making my own travel documentary while there. It's part of the fun. It's also a trial run for the documentary I'm planning on making about my travel through Scotland in the summer. I realised that I want to travel a lot. I'm going to do more mini breaks in Europe, as my money allows. I'll put a bit aside each month to a "travel fund". Oh, this is going to be so great! I'll concentrate on the visits and seeing the place, not the hotel or anything like that. I'll put the videos up on YouTube, so if anyone is interested, that is where you will need to look. My username is the same there. Playlist Another Japan-related thing is that I've finally found a good quality subber for the final eps of Inuyasha, which is great. A not Japan related issue is ...

I'm going to rant now, for which I appologise in advance. So, about a month ago, my flatmate informed me that I'm such a negative person, that he can't live with me. He is always going on about how you have to view life in a pleasant light. And then you wake up. He views life with the optimism of a 5-year-old, or an American, whichever you like. I just did an interesting thing. He infromed me that he's writing a blog and he writes there about me and other stuff. He didn't say where it is specifically, or how I can find it, so I didn't ask. But of course, I was curious. Especially because he was boasting about how many people read it and how interesting he was. He also didn't write it for himself, but his readers. Which are his colleagues actually and his friends. Ugh, I wouldn't want my friends or colleagues to read my blog. Why not? It would be too weird. Not that if you are indeed reading this, then you can't become my friend. So what I did w...

Damn it, I'm depressed again. I learned to put up a happy front in front of my flatmate as well. He was the last person I was slipping in front of in real life. So I smile for him and laugh. Not when I'm alone. I distract myself with games and reading and watching and whateve I can find. But otherwise, I just want to stare in front of me and think of nothing. Why? My life is empty. It has no meaning. I'm heading nowhere. At work people don't talk to each other, everyone is just buried in their computers, not taking any notice. When I once brought this up, my colleague said that everyone is working. In other places we could work and chat at the same time, or discuss stuff. Here it's just work. And they're obsessed! Everyone is doing overtime all the time and they don't even get paid for it. They even work during the weekend some times. I don't get it! At belly dance we talk, but it's only there and meaningless chatter. No one is really ...

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! I'm 71kg. Really! I stepped on the scales twice. Okay, 4 times actually, just to make sure. That's -4kg in about 2 weeks! Finally I'm getting somewhere. All the belly dancing and starving is starting to pay off. I can't believe it. I also lost about 3cm from all over. I did notice that my skirt was riding a little bit lower, but didn't want to get my hopes up. Size 38 shorts, here I come. I'm on a week long vacation from work now. Lots of rest. I have been really sleepy and tired all last week and the first night here at my mom's I slept for 15 hours. I also managed to convince my mom to watch Hana Yori Dango with me. I wanted to watch it again with the Director's Cut version of the final. It does have some great added stuff, but there is a really long scene with Tsukushi crying that I don't remember being that long in the original. My mom is terribly impatient. She was grumbling about the story not moving fast enough th...

I haven't written here for a long time. A lot of things happened. Still fat. It turned out my Candida is over the limit, so that's no sugar, white flour or other stuff like that until Xmas. Which sucks. But hopefully I'll loose some weight finally. I did get a Wii and it was cheaper than I expected. However, something happened and now it doesn't work. It still has waranty, even though I bought it slightly used. I'll call them and see how I can get it fixed. I love it and need it. Why does everything go wrong??? I have a different job that I got in April. It's not terribly exciting, but only regular work hours, can work from home a couple of days a month and the times are rather flexible. However, life is not really active there. I'm a bit confused. One of my colleagues likes me. Like that. I've never had that before. I'm usually the fat girl that is not looked upon as female, but rather a genderless being. And this colleague is ac...